I have a secret. Everyone has a secret. God has placed in each of us a secret. He has a special name for each of us. A name that He calls us and that only he calls us. It has taken me sometime to figure out how to hear him call me my name. My name is Triumphant, victorious one.
No matter how much I think that my name is "hopeless, worthless or nothing one". God declares over me that I am his victorious one and that I am triumphant.
When I was growing up I did not really fight for much. I was pretty easy to get along with and allowed myself to be trampled on again and again. Now I am not saying that I never fought, because I fought a bunch with my siblings. Unfortunately one of my issues in life that I am learning to overcome is the desire to please everyone. I didn't want to make people angry so I would do whatever they wanted me to. Many of my problems in life were caused or even started because I wanted to be accepted. I don't think that I have felt that I was victorious or triumphant as a child and if I did it was due to superficial victories that had no bearing on my life.
I was looking into the names that God calls me and was kinda freaked out. Being a person who is very laid back I was not impressed to see that the word victorious(in every definition that I could find) meant that someone had to be fighting in a battle and had to be the winner.
Definition:
1. Defeat of an enemy or opponent.
2. Success in a struggle against difficulties or an obstacle.
3. The state of having triumphed.
I know that as a Christian we are in a battle but sometimes one looses track of this when the army is invisible. I began to really notice the evidence of the attack but still did not realize the impact of what was really happening until recently.
I "think" I am not a warrior or a soldier but the more I search out the scriptures I am convinced that I am in an ongoing battle and fighting each and every moment.
I than began to search out the meaning for triumphant. This was very interesting.
definition:
1. Exulting in success or victory.
2. Victorious; conquering.
3. Archaic Triumphal.
4. Obsolete Magnificent; splendid.
When I imagine myself, I imagine a soldier who is tired and worn out and at first glance you see the tarnish and scuffs on the armor but looking closer you see the cuts and gashes that have pierced through and blood is flowing. Sometimes my head is hanging low and I have my helmet at my side, other times I am walking head tall. A closer look would show that there is a humongous angel standing behind me. I am so glad that God has that secret name for me.