Hannah Susanne Rice- January 10, 2002

Happy Birthday!
This is in honor of my beautiful daughter!.
Born on January 10th.
Weighing 10 pds 3 oz.
I love you Hannah.

Thank you God...Through it All.

I really did not want to do a memorial but I do need some closure.
It seems when you try to ignore things they come up with a vengeance. I am talking about January 13, 2007 and June 7,2007.
For those of you who don't know I found out that I was expecting on the dates above. Within two weeks of finding out I miscarried.
The first one was horrible, I don't think that I had ever felt so devastated in my life. We, my husband and I, weren't expecting these blessing but were totally deflated when these things were unexpectedly snatched away.
I crashed with the first baby and then with the second one was confident in one thing. That God did not do this and that He still kept every promise he ever made.
In prayer, I was told by God that it was okay to feel differently because He was working in me.
I thought that I was learning to trust.
On December 10,2007 found out that once again I was expecting. Not only did I have to adjust to the new feelings but I had to deal with torrents of fear and apprehension. I prayed and did not really hear from God. I knew that He is into restoration but really had no idea what this meant. Why would it be so hard to trust now? I knew things in my head, but they were not really making it down to my heart. When I would think of all the possibilities that this new stage of life would bring I would shut down and feel dread.
The week before I found out that I was expecting this last time we had the Jehu sermon and I had God tell me a few things and wasn't even expecting this result.
God said three things: "I will fulfill your every dream." "I will set your family right." "It is happening now."
I know this might seem like I am rambling and it is true, in some regards I am.

Today is a day for good memories no matter what the future may hold. I am standing at the thresh hold, 9 weeks and four days today.
I am confident in the whole process of what God has planned and what He shall do in this time.
Thank you all for the prayers and voices of encouragement you have given, I am so glad to have you all to lean on.
Be blessed my friends!